July 23, 2020

Give me breath, give me healing!

Posted in Uncategorized at 10:50 am by Aleksan

I call upon the Powers of the East and the Hawk of Dawn, soaring in the clear skies of Albion, and the Element of Air – and I ask for Blessings of Breath, Breathing and Healing, and the energy of the Golden Dragon, connecting me to Mother Nature and the Sky Gods Triumphant! I breathe in and I breathe out the Sacred Word, and let Sun and Moon work their Magic!

July 20, 2020

Sammy

Posted in Uncategorized at 8:38 am by Aleksan

It’s only now that Penny and I have come to realise just how much physical and mental energy went into looking after Sammy in his last weeks and months. We both became ill ourselves in different ways, and poor Sam somehow dominated every moment in one way or another. He had lived an active and energetic life to the full, but old age caught up with him, and we could not save him from that….

Now he has gone we are both totally exhausted, and it’s taking time to appreciate how much more time we now have for ourselves, and how less restricted we are. Sam was ready to go, he was worn out. We helped him pass on and loved him dearly. But we are too old to have another dog now – luckily we have many other doggy friends in our lives, and will be sharing the love.

July 14, 2020

A Case of Mistaken Identity

Posted in Uncategorized at 9:48 am by Aleksan

Drifting in and out of what I hope is a healing sleep strange memories flit across my mind. It’s late in 1980 and I visit the opticians – they ask me – have I ever been there before?

No, I haven’t. But the records say you have been here before – it clearly states that Alexander Burnfield of Longstock visited this opticians a year ago – with dirty scratched and cracked spectacles held together with Sellotape….

Of course that was my dad I told them, who died earlier in the year. A wonderful connection, and it certainly made me laugh! Farmer dad with his scratched spectacles done up with Sellotape! Proud of him..

July 13, 2020

Masks – the clever thing to do is wear them….

Posted in Uncategorized at 8:41 am by Aleksan

COVID-19 is a dangerous infection – I was Covid negative but listening to the discussions on the radio it is clear to me that the wearing of facemasks or coverings should be mandatory outside the home. We now know that Covid not only damages the lungs and kills people, but also damages the heart. I shall certainly be wearing my mask when I recover from my current chest infection. I hope that all of you reading this will do the same.. Wearing a mask is not about being afraid, or being weak – it’s an Intelligence Test….

July 12, 2020

Healing of body and Soul – the journey continues…

Posted in Uncategorized at 10:43 am by Aleksan

Penny has just asked me if I have posted an update this morning – no I have not – this isn’t because I have nothing to say because I feel a great deal and often want to say it too, but I don’t want to overburden people with negativity or illusion.

The truth is that the antibiotics are working and reducing the infection in my lungs, but there is a price to be paid -.the antibiotics themselves are basically a poison to eradicate the bugs in my chest, but being a poison they also affect my whole body, one reason I try to avoid them. This is certainly the case now, and I am experiencing a sort of zonked out feeling together with waves of nausea and lack of motivation.

I know this will pass and I know that the powerful drugs that my doctors have prescribed will do the trick, eradicate the bugs and restore me to physical health in time. However I need more than that – I need to be healed as a whole person, my soul needs to heal, I need the blessings of the Gods, connection with my ancestors and my friends and family. I need to see the greenery outside and breathe in the fresh air.

I am particularly lazy today and that is why I am recording this rather than writing it because although my eyes are less blurry I still find watching the screen and working out the letters rather difficult – so I guess the message today is that I am progressing slowly, not fighting but allowing the healing to take place in my body physically, mentally and spiritually. Blessings to you all and I thank you for your continuing messages for my well-being and recovery. A journey of 100 miles begins with the first step, and each of life’s cycles is another journey…Now to get out of bed and face a new day!

July 11, 2020

Chest infection update….

Posted in Uncategorized at 9:01 am by Aleksan

I have been prescribed a broad spectrum Tetracycline Antibiotic. (Exactly what I would have prescribed for a patient like me 50 years ago)

Went downhill yesterday evening, fever, continuous coughing, falling asleep and apathetic – after a few phone calls by Sarah Johns to 111 and from various remote hubs to me, all friendly and considerate, I got an appointment at a clinic in Romsey. Lovely Nurse Mandy all togged up examined me. 38.3 temp, oxygen 94 and crepitations (crakling bubbly sounds) both sides of lungs – If my oxygen had been 92 or less, she said I would be straight off to Hospital!

Feeling a little better this morning, and thanks to Penny and Sarah J for looking after me,, and thank you for all your kind wishes for my recovery. Will get up now and take it a bit steady avoiding sunlight and alcohol…

July 9, 2020

A Living Spectre lurks….

Posted in Uncategorized at 2:34 pm by Aleksan

A spectre lurks, a ghost who once was me. I never expected to live beyond fifty, and apparently there were worries that I might not get through my thirties. I still meet people who thought I had died years ago and are surprised I still haunt space- time. Indeed I am pretty surprised too when I look in the mirror and see an grizzled and wrinkled old face leering back.

But I am indeed still here, living a pretty full life due to the progress of modern medicine and welcoming great grandchildren, great nieces and a great nephew into the world.

Illness does plague me from time to time, and still plagues, and people often tell me “that the creaking gate lasts forever”. I am grateful
for my life and am by no means an old man yet.

My future, and all our futures lie in the lap of the Gods. Sometimes, in dark moments, I feel I have been round too many times, and would welcome some respite. Lockdown for me has been a respite of sorts, and given me an excuse to be that recluse that forms part of my identity.

With all its sadness, fears and pain, life is for living in the moment – the only place to live anyway. It is good to feel part of a pattern of ancestors, family and loving friends, and to be a small part of Mysterious Nature – even If I sometimes feel that I am already a member of the Ancestral Community that look on from inside the Forest shadows.

July 8, 2020

The Imp in my chest….

Posted in Uncategorized at 4:32 pm by Aleksan

Greetings from my armchair in the den where I have spent most of the day sleeping or resting. I continue breathless at times and coughing every now and again,but my mood is lighter.

I have begun to make friends with the Imp that has taken up residence in my chest and we are beginning to understand each other qther quite well. He has lost interest a little since I have stopped fighting, and the healing vibes I am getting from all four directions have robbed him of his power.

I think my Imp will be letting go soon. He has a destiny of his own that I know nothing about, but plays an important part in our lives. He is fond of telling me that what does not kill you makes you stronger, but I am not yet convinced!

Thank you for your healing energy, and a Blessing on All Existences, however mysterious they may seem to be….

Snakes and Ladders

Posted in Uncategorized at 1:10 pm by Aleksan

A shake of the dice and count the squares – up a ladder, nearly there! Shake the dice, count the squares, fear in my thumping heart….no! Not fair! I’ve landed on the head of a sinister snake – down I go to the bottom of the board and start all over again!

Snakes and Ladders on my grandparents Victorian Board was, in retrospect, a great training for vicissitudes of Life. The Gods play with us, as Utred says in the Last Kingdom – Destiny is All!

July 7, 2020

Why an the Old Bush Radio means so much to me….

Posted in Uncategorized at 3:26 pm by Aleksan

Being laid up, not focussing well to read and with time to contemplate the mysteries of life, past and present, this afternoon my mind turned to an old Bush Radio. This meant a lot to me back in about 1960, in bed in our school Sanatorium, “the San”

I had become quite ill with Chickenpox aged 16, and spent a few weeks in the San recovering. One day my tall Farmer Uncle Bunt turned up to visit me, and brought me his Bush Radio to listen to until I recovered. This was an act of kindness I have never forgotten and I loved that Bush Radio, then and always since.

I was unwell for a year or too with fatigue but got into Medical College OK. In my second year I developed the neurological symptoms which have dominated my life since. At first diagnosed with MS, a review at Oxford some years ago found that my illness was more like Neuromyelitis Optica, a condition that is commonly a complication of Chickenpx in adults.

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